[His talons go up to Ryan's hair, brushing through it as he figures out what to say. For as long as Noh doesn't find another lover, Garrus knows he doesn't want one. Will that change when he winds up not being enough for the kree? Garrus doesn't know. And maybe that's all the answer he can give right now.]
I don't know, Ryan.
[His voice is tired now, subharmonics a little hollow.]
For as long as... as...
[Garrus exhales, shifting underneath the human. He can't go there. He can't give up yet. Yes, he knows it's only a matter of time, but there's a part of him that insists on being in denial, that wants to think that somehow Noh won't want anyone except him. But at the end of the day, all he can be responsible for is his own actions and words. He pulls himself back together. Hell, for all he knows, the CDC is going to reassign him or Noh-Varr long before Noh gets bored.]
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[His talons go up to Ryan's hair, brushing through it as he figures out what to say. For as long as Noh doesn't find another lover, Garrus knows he doesn't want one. Will that change when he winds up not being enough for the kree? Garrus doesn't know. And maybe that's all the answer he can give right now.]
I don't know, Ryan.
[His voice is tired now, subharmonics a little hollow.]
For as long as... as...
[Garrus exhales, shifting underneath the human. He can't go there. He can't give up yet. Yes, he knows it's only a matter of time, but there's a part of him that insists on being in denial, that wants to think that somehow Noh won't want anyone except him. But at the end of the day, all he can be responsible for is his own actions and words. He pulls himself back together. Hell, for all he knows, the CDC is going to reassign him or Noh-Varr long before Noh gets bored.]
I want it to be platonic. I'm seeing Noh.