Not exactly what I mean. Those morals are a part of your culture, too. You forget them completely, you forget why you're here. I hate all of this shit we do, I told you that much. But I have been hating the shit I have to do for a long time.
I really hate that it has made it easier to handle. But I also hate watching people... I don't know. They will go through the stages of falling for it. Some will embrace it, even as their friends are in pain. Some will hate it and do it anyway, and I will see them get used to it.
You do what you have to do to survive, but it bothers me to see.
[He clears his throat. This is a discussion they've already had, though, but seeing other people go through what they went through- a mostly innocent woman go through it. It's dragging up some old hatred again.]
What I do with my principles now is I stack them. If I can do the right thing, I do it. If I can't, then I do the next best thing. The most important to me is my family at home right now. To protect this crew is to protect them. Whatever comes after I decide as I meet it.
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I really hate that it has made it easier to handle. But I also hate watching people... I don't know. They will go through the stages of falling for it. Some will embrace it, even as their friends are in pain. Some will hate it and do it anyway, and I will see them get used to it.
You do what you have to do to survive, but it bothers me to see.
[He clears his throat. This is a discussion they've already had, though, but seeing other people go through what they went through- a mostly innocent woman go through it. It's dragging up some old hatred again.]
What I do with my principles now is I stack them. If I can do the right thing, I do it. If I can't, then I do the next best thing. The most important to me is my family at home right now. To protect this crew is to protect them. Whatever comes after I decide as I meet it.