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forgivetheinsubordination) wrote2037-04-27 09:49 pm
forgivetheinsubordination) wrote2037-04-27 09:49 pm
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IC Contact - Consignment
vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
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[So he can add Erin to the list of people he's messed up with today. Good. He'd needed that to get longer. Garrus sighs.]
There will be. Because you need to know how to fight, because things are going to be dangerous. Call me when you're ready, Erin.
[He'll leave it in her hands.]
There will be. Because you need to know how to fight, because things are going to be dangerous. Call me when you're ready, Erin.
[He'll leave it in her hands.]
Edited 2015-02-10 08:48 (UTC)
I don't need to fight, I have you.
[A pause, while she picks up some of her pride and swallows it. Garrus, you are one special son of a bitch, savor what's about to happen.
Erin sets the gun on the ground (gently!), safely pointed away from anyone who might be walking around and turns again. Garrus is still close enough that she can stand on her very tiptoes and fling her arms around his neck--and if he doesn't bend down when she tightens her arms, he's going to end up with her literally hanging off him.]
I have a lesson for you, too. [Her voice is soft, for his ears only.] Don't fall for people who don't love you back. It's not worth it, believe me. Love the ones who love you first.
[A pause, while she picks up some of her pride and swallows it. Garrus, you are one special son of a bitch, savor what's about to happen.
Erin sets the gun on the ground (gently!), safely pointed away from anyone who might be walking around and turns again. Garrus is still close enough that she can stand on her very tiptoes and fling her arms around his neck--and if he doesn't bend down when she tightens her arms, he's going to end up with her literally hanging off him.]
I have a lesson for you, too. [Her voice is soft, for his ears only.] Don't fall for people who don't love you back. It's not worth it, believe me. Love the ones who love you first.
[He watches her, contemplating saying something about maybe not always having him, and then she's embracing him and he's bending forward so she doesn't wind up straining her back or shoulders. He swallows as he gently puts his arms back around her middle.]
I...
[His eyes close.]
Thank you, Erin.
[There won't be another falling. He'll guard his heart, the same way Noh does. Garrus won't go through this again. But that doesn't change the fact that it's good advice, and probably advice he should have sought a lot sooner. Hindsight is 20/20, and all that. His voice is exceptionally gentle with the faintest whisper of subharmonics as he continues talking.]
And I've got your back. Which includes teaching, for when you don't have me.
I...
[His eyes close.]
Thank you, Erin.
[There won't be another falling. He'll guard his heart, the same way Noh does. Garrus won't go through this again. But that doesn't change the fact that it's good advice, and probably advice he should have sought a lot sooner. Hindsight is 20/20, and all that. His voice is exceptionally gentle with the faintest whisper of subharmonics as he continues talking.]
And I've got your back. Which includes teaching, for when you don't have me.
[It's advice she should take herself, but she won't. Especially not now that Garrett is awake again.
She hums a little counterpoint to Garrus' subharmonics and holds on for just a few seconds longer. When she finally lets go there's something a little more at ease in her (someone please remind her that contact can be healthy) and she's more cheeky, less snappish.]
Again, still cute that you think there's gonna be a second lesson.
She hums a little counterpoint to Garrus' subharmonics and holds on for just a few seconds longer. When she finally lets go there's something a little more at ease in her (someone please remind her that contact can be healthy) and she's more cheeky, less snappish.]
Again, still cute that you think there's gonna be a second lesson.
Mmhmm.
[His voice is still quiet, subharmonics still hushed, but his mandibles flicker a tiny bit.]
There will be. Because you know it's better for you in the long run. Go on. Go do whatever it is you do when you're not hanging around me. ...That isn't stealing.
[Thieves.]
[His voice is still quiet, subharmonics still hushed, but his mandibles flicker a tiny bit.]
There will be. Because you know it's better for you in the long run. Go on. Go do whatever it is you do when you're not hanging around me. ...That isn't stealing.
[Thieves.]
So it's not like it never happens. It's that it's rare.
[And that is as it should be, in his opinion. He should have guarded himself better. He will.]
Doubt they see it as limiting when it happens, though. When they find someone.
[He sighs and shakes his head. It had been limiting for Noh, and that should have been a sign so much sooner.]
But this isn't really the place for that. Or maybe it is, but not for me. I don't know. Just know I'm not doing that again.
[And that is as it should be, in his opinion. He should have guarded himself better. He will.]
Doubt they see it as limiting when it happens, though. When they find someone.
[He sighs and shakes his head. It had been limiting for Noh, and that should have been a sign so much sooner.]
But this isn't really the place for that. Or maybe it is, but not for me. I don't know. Just know I'm not doing that again.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
So don't trust the butterflies. I suppose that's good to know. Are you sure you're all right?
So don't trust the butterflies. I suppose that's good to know. Are you sure you're all right?
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Lost some blood and had to deal with crossing a canal, got one more thing to figure out. Maybe two.
Lost some blood and had to deal with crossing a canal, got one more thing to figure out. Maybe two.
I don't know how the hell you're cheerful about that.
[He, on the other hand, is muttering. Nothing phases the Iotian. Garrus wouldn't sacrifice individuality for the calm, though. Especially when sometimes he's not sure if it's real, or just Pilot deciding things are fine because they must be fine and ignoring reality.
But it gives Pilot peace. And considering the state of mind a lot of people will be in as Macha continues, that's a good thing.]
And I... Hah. I should probably let you go on your way. Thanks for dropping by, Pilot.
[He's not sure why, but it had helped a little to have Pilot come by.]
And if I can think of anything I need, I'll let you know.
[He, on the other hand, is muttering. Nothing phases the Iotian. Garrus wouldn't sacrifice individuality for the calm, though. Especially when sometimes he's not sure if it's real, or just Pilot deciding things are fine because they must be fine and ignoring reality.
But it gives Pilot peace. And considering the state of mind a lot of people will be in as Macha continues, that's a good thing.]
And I... Hah. I should probably let you go on your way. Thanks for dropping by, Pilot.
[He's not sure why, but it had helped a little to have Pilot come by.]
And if I can think of anything I need, I'll let you know.
Admittedly, he doesn't feel the pain you're going through - so he can only be sad for you. But he tries to be cheerful about life, about everything- because why not be? What purpose is served by being cynical or morose?
[It's his philosophy and he'll stick to it.]
You'll heal, Garrus.
[It's his philosophy and he'll stick to it.]
You'll heal, Garrus.
Thanks. [She murmurs it, taking the solder gun and metal and looking them over. All she has to really stop her from being terrified of this going wrong is blind hope, which... she doesn't tend to like relying on.]
Uh... Not right now, but... [She stands and makes her way over to her locker, rummaging around in it for a moment before bringing out a blanket.] This'll do.
[Sitting back down, she takes the knife out of its holster and starts to cut a piece out of one corner of the blanket, quiet for a moment. Her whole relationship with Garrus now feels like an engineering project she half finished, then came back to ages later to find it rearranged. Two years ago, she's not sure she'd have pictured him dating an alien - and being this affected by it being over.
Empathy wells over her... along with a twinge of envy that he can have such a thing, a twinge that she chokes down hard.]
Don't say you shouldn't have let it happen. Don't think that. [There's an intensity to her voice she hadn't anticipated, and she's clearly slightly taken aback, clearing her throat.] If you get a chance to be happy, you take it. And you were happy, right?
[She glances up at him, a brief flicker of the eyes.]
Uh... Not right now, but... [She stands and makes her way over to her locker, rummaging around in it for a moment before bringing out a blanket.] This'll do.
[Sitting back down, she takes the knife out of its holster and starts to cut a piece out of one corner of the blanket, quiet for a moment. Her whole relationship with Garrus now feels like an engineering project she half finished, then came back to ages later to find it rearranged. Two years ago, she's not sure she'd have pictured him dating an alien - and being this affected by it being over.
Empathy wells over her... along with a twinge of envy that he can have such a thing, a twinge that she chokes down hard.]
Don't say you shouldn't have let it happen. Don't think that. [There's an intensity to her voice she hadn't anticipated, and she's clearly slightly taken aback, clearing her throat.] If you get a chance to be happy, you take it. And you were happy, right?
[She glances up at him, a brief flicker of the eyes.]
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
What do you mean? I thought you were safely in camp.
What do you mean? I thought you were safely in camp.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Yeah, sure. Through this or in person?
Yeah, sure. Through this or in person?
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
I'm safely in camp, yeah. As safe as camp will be, considering Ajna. But there's a pair of things I haven't been thinking about, been putting off.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
You feel like you know Armada at all?
I'm safely in camp, yeah. As safe as camp will be, considering Ajna. But there's a pair of things I haven't been thinking about, been putting off.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
You feel like you know Armada at all?
[He's a little startled by how strongly she corrects him, and Garrus realizes he has no idea if she's found time to date while they've served. Had there been someone that she regrets not seeing? Not giving a chance? He doesn't know, and now is really not the time to ask. Right now he can just listen to her words and look away at the question.]
I was happy.
[Enough of the time that it made all the difference. And yet he'd ended it. The pain had been going to overwhelm the happiness, and that was his fault for not being more careful.]
What...
[Garrus' voice comes out a bit more hoarse than he'd like, so he clears his throat and tries again.]
What do you need me to do?
[He can see why she'd called him, due to where the tear is. She can't take care of it on her own and it'd be so much easier to focus on carefully repairing the suit than how he'd been happy with Noh-Varr.]
I was happy.
[Enough of the time that it made all the difference. And yet he'd ended it. The pain had been going to overwhelm the happiness, and that was his fault for not being more careful.]
What...
[Garrus' voice comes out a bit more hoarse than he'd like, so he clears his throat and tries again.]
What do you need me to do?
[He can see why she'd called him, due to where the tear is. She can't take care of it on her own and it'd be so much easier to focus on carefully repairing the suit than how he'd been happy with Noh-Varr.]
Not boots, clearly.
[He tilts his head.]
Gonna guess it's at least practical and protective, if the friend's not using the flack jacket. Something billowy? Can catch weapons that aren't bullets with that.
[That's not his style, not when guns are what they use now back home, and especially not when it takes some grace, but he thinks it's a fair guess.]
[He tilts his head.]
Gonna guess it's at least practical and protective, if the friend's not using the flack jacket. Something billowy? Can catch weapons that aren't bullets with that.
[That's not his style, not when guns are what they use now back home, and especially not when it takes some grace, but he thinks it's a fair guess.]
Okay... [She rips the rest of the tiny patch of blanket away with her fingers, and brings it up to the suit tear, slowly and carefully tucking it in under the upper layer. It'll feel weird for a while, but she'll live. Better that than the alternative.] I'll hold the edges together as best I can and you... try not to solder my skin to the suit.
[It almost sounds joking.
There's still the feeling of a sharp twist in her gut at the tone of his voice before. Hoarse, as though wrung dry by the sheer force of the emotion crushing it.]
Just keep thinking about that. [There's still a sort of heaviness to her own voice - like it's laden down.] Being happy - that's the important thing.
[And, pushing a lighter tone into her voice:] And if that doesn't help, I have a knife and some guns.
[It almost sounds joking.
There's still the feeling of a sharp twist in her gut at the tone of his voice before. Hoarse, as though wrung dry by the sheer force of the emotion crushing it.]
Just keep thinking about that. [There's still a sort of heaviness to her own voice - like it's laden down.] Being happy - that's the important thing.
[And, pushing a lighter tone into her voice:] And if that doesn't help, I have a knife and some guns.
[ A pause. He's not sure where this is going. ]
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
I wouldn't claim to. What I know makes me glad to call him my Instructor, rather than the others. I trust his word.
Why?
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
I wouldn't claim to. What I know makes me glad to call him my Instructor, rather than the others. I trust his word.
Why?
FROM: michaelis.sebastian@cdc.org
Well, I understand the gist of that well enough. It is the same for my young master, but that is the unfortunate downside of being someone important, yes?
FROM: michaelis.sebastian@cdc.org
But that makes it all the more important that I may do so without such strings attached! I will certainly keep it in mind, whether or not she is able to work miracles for the young master or not.
Well, I understand the gist of that well enough. It is the same for my young master, but that is the unfortunate downside of being someone important, yes?
FROM: michaelis.sebastian@cdc.org
But that makes it all the more important that I may do so without such strings attached! I will certainly keep it in mind, whether or not she is able to work miracles for the young master or not.
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