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forgivetheinsubordination) wrote2037-04-27 09:49 pm
forgivetheinsubordination) wrote2037-04-27 09:49 pm
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[For a short time, he'd been distracted from the pain. That had been enough. Garrus shakes his head.]
It's not the topic I most wanna cover, no. But... But it's good if someone's getting it right. If someone has something working.
It's not the topic I most wanna cover, no. But... But it's good if someone's getting it right. If someone has something working.
It's important, yeah. But we can't possibly bring back enough food for over a hundred people. We'll bring back some. We're not the only team hunting, though. Don't worry.
[Whomever Red had told that to can't possibly expect the boy to feed everyone. They have to know it's youthful exaggeration and optimism. Garrus isn't worried there.]
Though if Charizard can carry us...
[Garrus glances at the pokemon.]
Let's test it, quickly. See if he can lift me, if it's not too hard. If he can, then we can go further. A thirty-minute flight's worth.
[Whomever Red had told that to can't possibly expect the boy to feed everyone. They have to know it's youthful exaggeration and optimism. Garrus isn't worried there.]
Though if Charizard can carry us...
[Garrus glances at the pokemon.]
Let's test it, quickly. See if he can lift me, if it's not too hard. If he can, then we can go further. A thirty-minute flight's worth.
Alright. [ He can agree to that. Red stops walking and the pokémon does as well, and the boy steps out of the way of the two as he turns around. ]
Charizard, put that down and let Garrus get on your back. See if you can fly with him.
[ Righty-o, captain. The basket exchanges hands and Charizard sits it onto the ground, then backs up as he lowers himself to allow Garrus easier access onto his back. Red's rather interested to see how it'll go. ]
Have you ever flown like this before? It feels funny, but you want to keep your legs against him.
[ Well, depending on if Charizard can lift off at all. ]
Charizard, put that down and let Garrus get on your back. See if you can fly with him.
[ Righty-o, captain. The basket exchanges hands and Charizard sits it onto the ground, then backs up as he lowers himself to allow Garrus easier access onto his back. Red's rather interested to see how it'll go. ]
Have you ever flown like this before? It feels funny, but you want to keep your legs against him.
[ Well, depending on if Charizard can lift off at all. ]
I just meant...
[Fuck. He'd thought Charizard could simply lift him and figure it out. The prospect of taking flight already hadn't crossed his mind. But nothing is ever easy. Garrus climbs onto Charizard and braces himself.]
Been on a larger dragon. Temeraire.
[The name brings a flash of pain to mind. They hadn't moved quickly enough to save him, and it's a regret Garrus may carry for a time yet. It gets pushed back, though. He can't focus on it right now; he has to focus on riding a smaller dragon.
When Charizard manages to get in the air Garrus feels mostly relief, though he's still clinging to Charizard as if his life depends on it. Even just a few feet up.]
There, then. Okay. Let's land and move forward, and hopefully not have to turn to that.
[Fuck. He'd thought Charizard could simply lift him and figure it out. The prospect of taking flight already hadn't crossed his mind. But nothing is ever easy. Garrus climbs onto Charizard and braces himself.]
Been on a larger dragon. Temeraire.
[The name brings a flash of pain to mind. They hadn't moved quickly enough to save him, and it's a regret Garrus may carry for a time yet. It gets pushed back, though. He can't focus on it right now; he has to focus on riding a smaller dragon.
When Charizard manages to get in the air Garrus feels mostly relief, though he's still clinging to Charizard as if his life depends on it. Even just a few feet up.]
There, then. Okay. Let's land and move forward, and hopefully not have to turn to that.
[ Did you see your life flash before your eyes, Garrus?? Welcome to the CDC. Charizard brings down Garrus as gently as he can when he lands, though the man is the most largest weight he's ever had on his back. The fact that he's heavier than him means nothing, but it's something Red notices for the small time that they both hover up, and he tucks the idea that he should get the pokémon to practice supporting larger weights from above.
Later. The boy catches as well how uncomfortable Garrus appears with the idea, and when Charizard goes to take his basket again, Red gives Garrus a small smile. ]
We can walk out as far as you wanted to go for today. Thirty minutes is still pretty far.
Later. The boy catches as well how uncomfortable Garrus appears with the idea, and when Charizard goes to take his basket again, Red gives Garrus a small smile. ]
We can walk out as far as you wanted to go for today. Thirty minutes is still pretty far.
If you're sure.
[Garrus doesn't want to make the boy feel like he's breaking his word to whomever he promised to bring back a lot of food to. Yes, he's nervous about the flying, but he can get over that. Charizard could manage. Though he's also not going to rush it.
The ground feels good under his feet when he climbs off the pokemon's back, and Garrus takes a short second to enjoy that before nodding toward the area outside of camp.]
So how big of a thing can Charizard take down? And watch your step to the right there, the purple flowers. Not something we're gonna want to stop near, though the flowers are tasty enough. The vine likes eating people.
[Garrus doesn't want to make the boy feel like he's breaking his word to whomever he promised to bring back a lot of food to. Yes, he's nervous about the flying, but he can get over that. Charizard could manage. Though he's also not going to rush it.
The ground feels good under his feet when he climbs off the pokemon's back, and Garrus takes a short second to enjoy that before nodding toward the area outside of camp.]
So how big of a thing can Charizard take down? And watch your step to the right there, the purple flowers. Not something we're gonna want to stop near, though the flowers are tasty enough. The vine likes eating people.
[ Red gives Garrus a reassuring nod. It wasn't like they couldn't maybe go out again, or Red could go with another person. He'd read the file on how much time until it'd eventually get dark, and then everything would be lit by the lights of the wildlife (not a time he intended to go out in, but he was curious about it).
He planned to do as much as he could, one way or another.
Red watches his feet first before getting to the question, and then the information distracts him further to his blackglass, booting it back up. ] Oh, I read about them... Charizard, you watch your feet.
[ A sound comes behind them, and Red brings his attention back to Garrus. ]
It doesn't matter how big it is really - just how strong it is and if we can figure out a strategy to take it down. He could probably knock the hydrocoose over, if we tried. We found out how they can't stand flashing lights when the stampede happened, so [ and he gestures now with his hand holding the black glass, making a circular motion ] if we confused the heads and then attacked the legs, we could make it trip itself up.
[ That was one idea, anyway. He brings his arm in again to glance at the blackglass and then around them, back to those purple flowers and vines. ]
Are you worried about whatever's still around after the stampede?
He planned to do as much as he could, one way or another.
Red watches his feet first before getting to the question, and then the information distracts him further to his blackglass, booting it back up. ] Oh, I read about them... Charizard, you watch your feet.
[ A sound comes behind them, and Red brings his attention back to Garrus. ]
It doesn't matter how big it is really - just how strong it is and if we can figure out a strategy to take it down. He could probably knock the hydrocoose over, if we tried. We found out how they can't stand flashing lights when the stampede happened, so [ and he gestures now with his hand holding the black glass, making a circular motion ] if we confused the heads and then attacked the legs, we could make it trip itself up.
[ That was one idea, anyway. He brings his arm in again to glance at the blackglass and then around them, back to those purple flowers and vines. ]
Are you worried about whatever's still around after the stampede?
If there's gerol, yeah. The others... If you think we can take a hydrocus down safely, then we'll do so. But they're not aggressive right off the bat. Haisuna, we know what they look like and we can take them out fast, before they can latch on.
[Garrus shrugs. He's had a bad experience with the gerol, and he's not looking for a repeat. They're not even edible. There's nothing worthwhile about that animal.]
Optimally, we run into a solo kyrie. Though we're gonna have to be careful with what it can project. What sort of mental defenses does Charizard have? Anything?
[Garrus shrugs. He's had a bad experience with the gerol, and he's not looking for a repeat. They're not even edible. There's nothing worthwhile about that animal.]
Optimally, we run into a solo kyrie. Though we're gonna have to be careful with what it can project. What sort of mental defenses does Charizard have? Anything?
[ Honestly, if they don't have to touch any of the hydrocus at all, that would be the best option. He nods to the comment of the haisunae. ]
Right, keep a distance. Do the haisuna scare easy? [ It worked during the stampede; hopefully it would work when they were calmer too.
Red considers Garrus's question however. ] Well... if it's the same, he's gone up against psychic attacks -- they're more mental than physical. [ He's guessing, anyway. ] He's not weak to them, but they can still get to him.
[ A pause. ] Would attacking from a distance help keep out of the range at all?
Right, keep a distance. Do the haisuna scare easy? [ It worked during the stampede; hopefully it would work when they were calmer too.
Red considers Garrus's question however. ] Well... if it's the same, he's gone up against psychic attacks -- they're more mental than physical. [ He's guessing, anyway. ] He's not weak to them, but they can still get to him.
[ A pause. ] Would attacking from a distance help keep out of the range at all?
FROM: yamanaka.ino@cdc.org
It was a really long story, but yeah.
But don't tell him I told you that.
Seriously.
FROM: yamanaka.ino@cdc.org
In fact, just don't tell anyone.
Ever.
FROM: yamanaka.ino@cdc.org
Oh my god, you are trying way too hard, Mom.
I'm giving up on boys, okay? Until we get some here that are actually worth my time, I'm over it.
[ Isn't it weird how she doesn't include Sasuke in any of this... ]
It was a really long story, but yeah.
But don't tell him I told you that.
Seriously.
FROM: yamanaka.ino@cdc.org
In fact, just don't tell anyone.
Ever.
FROM: yamanaka.ino@cdc.org
Oh my god, you are trying way too hard, Mom.
I'm giving up on boys, okay? Until we get some here that are actually worth my time, I'm over it.
[ Isn't it weird how she doesn't include Sasuke in any of this... ]
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
I think you're trying way too hard to ignore every option. There's a very possible reason for this.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
You already know what you want and you're trying to hide from it.
I think you're trying way too hard to ignore every option. There's a very possible reason for this.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
You already know what you want and you're trying to hide from it.
They might scare easy. I don't know. I haven't run into any, personally, outside of the stampede when everything was panicked. Unless you count the things in the camp that might or might not be haisuna.
[He still doesn't know. It worries him when he considers who is bonding with them and might lose those bonds, too. But there's nothing he can do except be around and support if things come to the worst-case scenario.]
Distance is a good idea with the kyrie. When I ran into one before, I didn't feel anything until we were close. Might not mean anything, but I can snipe from a distance, and if Charizard can do fire from a distance we could do well.
[He still doesn't know. It worries him when he considers who is bonding with them and might lose those bonds, too. But there's nothing he can do except be around and support if things come to the worst-case scenario.]
Distance is a good idea with the kyrie. When I ran into one before, I didn't feel anything until we were close. Might not mean anything, but I can snipe from a distance, and if Charizard can do fire from a distance we could do well.
[ He had been wondering about those in the camp, mistaking them on arrival for those from the stampede and that leading to a near-unfortunate incident with a group of them later on. The file spoke that they shouldn't be allowed to get too close, but then there were those in the camp kept as companions.
There was still the want to learn more about them, but- later on. Red follows the conversation taking place now. ]
Sure, yeah -- Charizard can aim his fire from a distance. If it's safe enough he can trap them in a ring of fire too but [ he shakes his head a little ] I don't want to risk that if we get caught in a dense forest. I don't want to burn the trees.
[ Hard to put out fires with no water pokémon on hand. He thinks after saying that though, back to all the creatures he had read about. ]
Won't the bigger problems be the gerols? I remember reading they're meant to be hostile, and there were plenty of them during the rush before. [ A pause. ] There was another entry about nests in the forests about another creature too. Do you remember that one? [ What was it... ] Something like... asshu, kesshu...
There was still the want to learn more about them, but- later on. Red follows the conversation taking place now. ]
Sure, yeah -- Charizard can aim his fire from a distance. If it's safe enough he can trap them in a ring of fire too but [ he shakes his head a little ] I don't want to risk that if we get caught in a dense forest. I don't want to burn the trees.
[ Hard to put out fires with no water pokémon on hand. He thinks after saying that though, back to all the creatures he had read about. ]
Won't the bigger problems be the gerols? I remember reading they're meant to be hostile, and there were plenty of them during the rush before. [ A pause. ] There was another entry about nests in the forests about another creature too. Do you remember that one? [ What was it... ] Something like... asshu, kesshu...
[He can hear that strangeness in Garrus' already odd voice, and he isn't sure what the reason for it is.]
We had our mission. [Is all he says, deliberately staying vague. He knows that the turian is well-acquainted with Jean, and he doesn't deem it necessary to give anything away that could ruin them if they ever manage to get back home.]
But. Then things changed. [Eren. Searching for the Coordinate. So much that they hadn't expected. But they'd adapted, hadn't they? And then Annie had gotten caught, and...]
Even if I hate myself more than anything... I will see my home again. No matter what.
We had our mission. [Is all he says, deliberately staying vague. He knows that the turian is well-acquainted with Jean, and he doesn't deem it necessary to give anything away that could ruin them if they ever manage to get back home.]
But. Then things changed. [Eren. Searching for the Coordinate. So much that they hadn't expected. But they'd adapted, hadn't they? And then Annie had gotten caught, and...]
Even if I hate myself more than anything... I will see my home again. No matter what.
[Garrus shakes his head after Reiner answers, realizing how the boy took his question.]
I mean the conflict. How the conflict between titans and humans started. Not asking for military secrets.
[As much as he's worried for Jean, he can't ask for those. He won't betray the trust placed in him right now.]
Why do you hate yourself, now? You were fighting for your people, by the sounds of it.
I mean the conflict. How the conflict between titans and humans started. Not asking for military secrets.
[As much as he's worried for Jean, he can't ask for those. He won't betray the trust placed in him right now.]
Why do you hate yourself, now? You were fighting for your people, by the sounds of it.
That'd be why I said if there are gerol remaining, I'd be worried. The other, the...
[Garrus trails off as he looks through the bestiary.]
Khesau. We could bring some of those back. Might be much easier than a kyrie. Eggs, smaller in size, no empathy issues going on. I can take them out with headshots easily enough, and Charizard can likely flip them over. Should we see if we can track some of those?
[Not burning the forest down might be a rather good idea. Especially since they're in it.]
[Garrus trails off as he looks through the bestiary.]
Khesau. We could bring some of those back. Might be much easier than a kyrie. Eggs, smaller in size, no empathy issues going on. I can take them out with headshots easily enough, and Charizard can likely flip them over. Should we see if we can track some of those?
[Not burning the forest down might be a rather good idea. Especially since they're in it.]
W-- wait. [ Red stops in his steps at that, Charizard doing the same with a small huff as he watches his trainer curiously who stares at Garrus with wide eyes. ] You want to kill them? Why? I thought...
[ He thought they were talking about keeping up a defence, but then suddenly, with that, it clicks to Red the answer as to why without Garrus needing to say it. Why else, and there's a muffled sound as Red looks down, feeling all at once stupid for not getting it sooner, and unsure about what he wants to do. ]
[ He thought they were talking about keeping up a defence, but then suddenly, with that, it clicks to Red the answer as to why without Garrus needing to say it. Why else, and there's a muffled sound as Red looks down, feeling all at once stupid for not getting it sooner, and unsure about what he wants to do. ]
[Garrus stops too, surprised, confused, and then he gets it. Red had meant to gather plants for food, not hunt animals. There's a long beat, and then Garrus looks back the way they'd came.]
...Let's backtrack to the vines, pick the flowers there. There should be plenty of plants to gather that can be eaten in this area, and we shouldn't have to kill anything to eat.
[Red is going to have to face killing soon, seeing as he's on Green, but they can take slow steps.]
...Let's backtrack to the vines, pick the flowers there. There should be plenty of plants to gather that can be eaten in this area, and we shouldn't have to kill anything to eat.
[Red is going to have to face killing soon, seeing as he's on Green, but they can take slow steps.]
[ It's a smooth and easy solution to the issue. Red could agree, and they could head back to the vines and the flowers, and he could bring up about the berries he'd seen in the catalogue and search for them as he'd intended. There were all sorts, and if they were lucky they could find enough the fill the entire basket to the brim.
But his feet stick stubbornly to the ground, his eyes not staring into the ground any less. He remembers the supply of kraken that had helped to feed Charizard before, and the creatures brought in from the stampede. His world wasn't a world that lived only on vegetation, but there were stores where food could be brought, where hunting wasn't a necessity.
Except there was no store to go down the road to, no trainer was recommended to feed only greens to all their pokémon. Not enough nutrients, or something. Charizard was like that too. ]
...Should we? [ The hesitation doesn't leave him any less, not in his words or his silence. ] If we don't... others will. Right? People need more than flowers...
[ It's still a hard thing to convince himself over. ]
But his feet stick stubbornly to the ground, his eyes not staring into the ground any less. He remembers the supply of kraken that had helped to feed Charizard before, and the creatures brought in from the stampede. His world wasn't a world that lived only on vegetation, but there were stores where food could be brought, where hunting wasn't a necessity.
Except there was no store to go down the road to, no trainer was recommended to feed only greens to all their pokémon. Not enough nutrients, or something. Charizard was like that too. ]
...Should we? [ The hesitation doesn't leave him any less, not in his words or his silence. ] If we don't... others will. Right? People need more than flowers...
[ It's still a hard thing to convince himself over. ]
[Garrus takes a breath before kneeling in front of the boy, bringing them to about eye-level. Or it would be eye-level if Red wasn't staring at the ground. He reaches over and rests his hand on Red's shoulder.]
Back on the last world, Green was-- Green team was assigned a mission to kill the local wildlife along with Red team.
[He'll... omit that the wildlife was the apex species. That can come later. He's probably going to do enough damage to Red here. Garrus' voice and subharmonics are as gentle as possible.]
There isn't any avoiding it. And we will be destroying this planet. Maybe it's better that more animals die now, are given the chance to be useful, rather than wind up panicking as the gravity on this world goes haywire before it's disintegrated. But I'm gonna leave it up to you for this particular errand. If you want, we'll gather plants instead.
Back on the last world, Green was-- Green team was assigned a mission to kill the local wildlife along with Red team.
[He'll... omit that the wildlife was the apex species. That can come later. He's probably going to do enough damage to Red here. Garrus' voice and subharmonics are as gentle as possible.]
There isn't any avoiding it. And we will be destroying this planet. Maybe it's better that more animals die now, are given the chance to be useful, rather than wind up panicking as the gravity on this world goes haywire before it's disintegrated. But I'm gonna leave it up to you for this particular errand. If you want, we'll gather plants instead.
[ Red doesn't ignore Garrus. When he lowers the boy meets him, but there's a struggle to find the best place to keep his gaze where they can stay still and not flicker away at the mention of death, to not lower again completely just so Red can keep his emotions in check and not tremble from how too defenceless the turian's gaze on him makes him feel.
It doesn't work. All of that happens, and Red head tips before Garrus even continues again. They're words he wants to fight against in the same way each reminder of the goals of the CDC still makes him want to scream and lash out, yet it's the implication that any of those creatures are useless if they were to be allowed to continue their lives that gnaws on him the most. They're not the only words, and the scene painted by Garrus of each life left suffering before the complete end is a reminder of the cruelty that will be inflicted on everyone on the planet, and by them.
A choice they don't have, but still those deaths will be on their hands.
It doesn't give him an answer, and there's a wait until Red speaks, his voice low. ]
If we let them live... even if we can't save this planet... is it really a waste? [ He shouldn't continue, but he can't stop himself, eyes set down on the curve of armour. ] That's still time... their life, on this planet. We can't save them, but...
[ Red turns his head away in the direction that won't show him anything but bark and dirt. The picture shows itself to him once more and he can't get it out; he's never known what happens at the end, only that it comes with the planet and everything no longer existing.
He doesn't want them to suffer, but he can't see the difference between a death now and a death later.
How was he going to keep everyone safe? ]
I won't get a choice one day... [ A day fast approaching in his mind. ] But how am I going to make it?
It doesn't work. All of that happens, and Red head tips before Garrus even continues again. They're words he wants to fight against in the same way each reminder of the goals of the CDC still makes him want to scream and lash out, yet it's the implication that any of those creatures are useless if they were to be allowed to continue their lives that gnaws on him the most. They're not the only words, and the scene painted by Garrus of each life left suffering before the complete end is a reminder of the cruelty that will be inflicted on everyone on the planet, and by them.
A choice they don't have, but still those deaths will be on their hands.
It doesn't give him an answer, and there's a wait until Red speaks, his voice low. ]
If we let them live... even if we can't save this planet... is it really a waste? [ He shouldn't continue, but he can't stop himself, eyes set down on the curve of armour. ] That's still time... their life, on this planet. We can't save them, but...
[ Red turns his head away in the direction that won't show him anything but bark and dirt. The picture shows itself to him once more and he can't get it out; he's never known what happens at the end, only that it comes with the planet and everything no longer existing.
He doesn't want them to suffer, but he can't see the difference between a death now and a death later.
How was he going to keep everyone safe? ]
I won't get a choice one day... [ A day fast approaching in his mind. ] But how am I going to make it?
Guess that depends on how you view a waste.
[He's still being quiet. There's no reason to put more pressure on the boy than Red is already dealing with. Slow and easy are the key words here. There isn't a rush, nobody in camp is in danger of starving and there's been no urgent messages of threats at the camp. They're not even that far out yet.]
More life versus being useful in death. It's all about what you prioritize, what you see as important. And that's how you make the choice, too. Take into account what you know and what you value. Work from there.
[What's most important is Red knowing himself, and acting from that knowledge.]
[He's still being quiet. There's no reason to put more pressure on the boy than Red is already dealing with. Slow and easy are the key words here. There isn't a rush, nobody in camp is in danger of starving and there's been no urgent messages of threats at the camp. They're not even that far out yet.]
More life versus being useful in death. It's all about what you prioritize, what you see as important. And that's how you make the choice, too. Take into account what you know and what you value. Work from there.
[What's most important is Red knowing himself, and acting from that knowledge.]
[Reiner only shakes his head in turn.] I don't know. I was given my mission and knew I had to complete it. [Even if he knew, he's not sure he can bring himself to talk about it.]
Because I... betrayed them. Everyone. I forgot who I was, what my mission was... I thought I was a human soldier just like the rest of them, not a shifter.
Is my own selfishness justification for getting that many people killed?
Because I... betrayed them. Everyone. I forgot who I was, what my mission was... I thought I was a human soldier just like the rest of them, not a shifter.
Is my own selfishness justification for getting that many people killed?
You forgot, or you were made to forget? Because it's sounding like they did something when they sent you in.
[A war so old that nobody remembers the beginning? Is that how entrenched it is? That would make sense for humanity living behind twin walls.]
Is it so wrong to fight for what you believe in?
[A war so old that nobody remembers the beginning? Is that how entrenched it is? That would make sense for humanity living behind twin walls.]
Is it so wrong to fight for what you believe in?
FROM: leonhart.annie@cdc.org
garrus do you know what wtf means
[ also... hello again ]
garrus do you know what wtf means
[ also... hello again ]
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