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[He's not sure if she's trying to provoke him into feeling better or if she's not thinking. Either way, the whole bigger-fish thing... Sure, everyone knows a bunch of people hate the CDC. But it's not the smartest thing to just say that's the endgame. To get stronger and destroy it somehow.

The look in Garrus' eyes is flat as he closes the distance to the first tree and starts picking.]

That's what you've got to say on that? Not that there are parallels, because there are, but that if my goals aren't big enough, I should be dead?

[He shakes his head.]

Might not be as good at sneaking as some. But apparently I'm a little better than others. Unless we want to just talk about these fish outright.

Sure, why not.

[Does that sound like she's jumping out of a shuttle without a parachute? Because it probably should - dangerous and crazy in the moment before she launches into:]

Say you do what you have to and keep the CDC from blowing your planet up. Great. Good for you. So now what's going to stop the Reapers from wiping it off off the map anyway?

[Those aren't the big fish she means, but it's a more than decent cover for anyone with an ear to the conversation - and given the parameters of her contract, that's all that really matters. And it isn't like she's ever been good at clever maneuvering. Telling people to be her flanking back up? Sure. But her specialty has always been gunning straight for an issue.]

Don't play to survive, play to win. As long as that's what you're doing, any similarities you think you have with Saren don't matter.

[The ends justify the means or some crap like that.]

I'm playing to win. But I'm also playing to not lose me. I won't be able to go back to the home I'm trying to save, but at least I hope to still be able to live with myself. For whatever time I have left.

[He... hadn't thought he needed to say he was going to win this thing. Not considering his mission request, not considering how he's been trying to get somewhere in the ranking so he can actually do more.]

Is staying on Grey helping you win, though?

[Is anyone going to listen to her while she's on Grey? If she sees an opportunity and makes a move, who, out of her crew, would back her up? And why is Shepard still on Grey?]

Well it's not hurting me.

[Not yet. On a very basic, fundamental level being on Grey has probably given her marginally better odds when it comes to dying in the field actually given the scale of their assignments has been 'glorified fetch' and playing with robot dogs. She can't see it doing her any good in the long run, but it's also not up to her. If doing what she deems necessary isn't enough to get her back into normal rotation, then fine. She just has to trust that if it comes time to move, the people she expects to be with her won't hang back because of the color on her CDC issue armband.

She cares more about that than the rest - rank or intel or being able to live with herself.]

[Sometimes, in some ways, it hurts him, her position on Grey. She's one of his best friends, one of his oldest friends, and she's been punished for so long. Garrus doesn't know that there's anything she can do about it, though. He doesn't know if she can, not if she wants to. There are so many better ways to use her talents... then again, he feels the same way about his demotion. Sometimes it doesn't seem like the CDC really knows how to use its resources. At all.]

I hope it's not, Shepard. I really hope it's not. But even if it was, it's not like I have any real suggestions here. If I knew what they did, why, if I knew what was driving them...

[Because they're a company, but Garrus really doesn't think it's profit. He really doesn't.]

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