[He listens, trying to keep his mouth shut, ignoring the split-second-long temptation to mention that if she needs him to hush they have something for that, because talking about that could only go poorly.
At first he doesn't get the point, and he reaches up to rub the scar on the side of his face while he thinks. Of course they're a unit. They should really have their own record-keeper at this point. Maybe EDI counts. But then, maybe, he thinks he sees it. Ourselves. She's telling him she can take care of herself.
Garrus sighs.]
I know.
[His voice is quiet.]
I know. I've seen you fight. I've seen you take a stand against your admiralty board. ...But I've seen Krios fight, and I've seen him fall. I've seen a lot fall that I know can handle themselves. Menae...
[Omega. Thessia.]
I don't know how to stop trying to protect people at this point. I don't know if I even want to. The last thing I want to do is drive you away, or fight with you. But I can't figure out how to relax. This place doesn't have weaknesses that I've found, but we do and it knows some of them. It knows us well enough to chip us and... Ah. Hah. Yeah. Right. Shutting up.
[She reaches up to put a hand on his shoulder, if only because it seems to ground her, the contact, the physical reality. I don't know if you're my Garrus. But you are Garrus and that's--the same thing. Near enough. I don't know. Countless worlds in parallel... She shakes the nagging thought from her mind.]
It's not about taking care of myself. I mean that I need to protect myself to protect you. As do you, for the rest of us. Because we're going to be caught up in the same trouble.
[None of us can afford to die for one another.] I was angry, but you won't be rid of me that easily. I... hope the same works the other way.
[Garrus is taking things a lot more simply. This is Tali. They have Thane, and they have Vega. It's them. He'd know them anywhere, and no matter the differences, these are his team. His unit, as she'd said.
Though now he hears the undercurrent too, or he thinks he does. If he goes Archangel, if he starts acting out and going rogue... he puts them at risk. They'll all be watched more, no matter how well they're integrating or seeming to cooperate. He half-turns, looking past her for a moment before shaking his head.]
You're not going to lose me. Nothing you're capable of doing could drive me away. [There's a short pause.] But I can't not act. They've got kids. Hostages, same expectations as everyone else - integrate or face the consequences. If I don't find something to do... Some way, some difference to make, I don't know if I can live with myself.
I know. [The word has force to it but her voice is soft--not gentle, but tinted with shared purpose.] I'm not asking you to sit by. I'm asking you to go slow for now. We need groundwork, and...
And as aggravating as it is, part of that groundwork is me trying to stay out of trouble--and re-ed--so we can work out something to do that actually has impact.
I want us to go home. If we can do that with a few of the others here, topple a few things while we're at it, you know I'm with you. Only it's a long game to play.
I'm not telling you to not do that. [Garrus sounds a little tired.] I don't know what you want me to say, Tali. I said I was sorry. I mean it. I know what this place requires and I'm not going to shoot someone for replying to your ad. I said before that when I went to Omega I didn't just go at it. I...
[She takes half a step back--any more and she'll collide with the door--and drops her jaw against a hand, fingers curling and then opening again.]
Maybe you need to hover less, but I... I need to stop trying to prove myself so much. Nobody ever came out and said it, and I know I'm trusted just the same, but I... know I was always sort of the little one on the squad. The engineer girl on her Pilgrimage, the rookie researcher who scraped by on Haestrom by the skin of her teeth. [Not who got her team killed, not to Garrus, not here.
She sighs, the lifts her eyes to him, her voice genuinely softer now.]
[His voice is gentle, with the barest hint of teasing, and it's Garrus' turn to reach out. He rests a hand on her shoulder, looking into her eyes.]
You're one of the smallest on the squad, sure. We'd have to stand you back-to-back with Kasumi to know for certain which was the shortest. But you've never been weak. Hell, you and I make half the group that's been there the whole time.
You don't have anything to prove, vas Rannoch. Not to us, not to your people. [And then, because serious is something he can do, but he prefers to break it up a little...] Well. You could always try to prove your shotgun is better than my sniper rifle. But you'll lose that one, so I suggest not even going there.
She's one hundred and nine, that's hardly fair. [Her shoulder slumps fractionally under his hand, some held tension going from her. Her eyes narrow in the helmet, but she sounds tartly amused.]
Don't go there indeed, Vakarian. I can always start counting how many shots I've set you up for by sending Chatika to flush some hapless merc from cover.
[She pauses.] You know, when you opened the door I didn't know if I was going to hug or kick you. [And she'd continue I think I picked the right option, but it's audible enough in her tone.]
That's over three times my age. A hundred and nine times Grunt's.
[There's more amusement in his voice now that what he's said has gone over well.]
I'm glad you didn't kick me, personally. I wouldn't want you breaking your toes and having to limp around. People might start asking questions and I get enough frightened looks as it is.
[He's sounding smug. Yeah, they'd fought. But they've fixed things. And he hasn't gotten kicked. It's a pretty good day, in his books.]
So exactly how attached are you to your kneecaps? [She lifts one booted foot to poke him lightly in an unarmoured shin.] I can still make good on the other option.
[Then she sobers.] There was something I wanted to mention, though. You... know someone named Darkleer, right? One of the trolls, the ones who all write in different colours.
[His voice is mild. Garrus isn't upset, just telling her. It wasn't like Tali was going to use the knowledge to go around hitting one of the few rather weak spots on a turian body. He reaches over and taps her faceplate, mandibles widening as his mood fully returns to normal.]
You're on my turf, quarian. You might want to be careful. And yeah. I know Darkleer. Met him a couple of times now. Scientist, helped me find a coupe of dextro things here before I discovered I... didn't need that anymore.
[And then the cheer fades, and Garrus crosses his arms.]
[She closes her eyes, accepts the rebuke. Sometimes they coast around dangerous things in their joking. If it was anyone but Garrus putting a hand on her visor, she'd have gone for her gun or the offender's wrist in a snap. So they understand each other.
And thus, she can return to the other topic.]
He spoke of you like he knew you, but I wanted to be sure. It wouldn't be that hard to work out we know each other.
Scientific curiosity is all well and good. I certainly don't mind talking about my world, or... even things like my immune system. I mean, everyone knows that back home, too. But then he asked for the schematics of my suit.
[He gets the problem in an instant, but he also catches the drift of why it would have come up.]
Anyone from home would know how stupid that was. Pointless, rude, and almost threatening. But I don't see how he'd know that. They've also got something of a handicap, his race. Trolls. They're the top of the foodchain, from what another one was saying. Defeated everyone else in their galaxy. Prothean-like. So being considerate of other races' vulnerabilities isn't going to naturally occur to them. Not that he's fully excused. If you need me to talk to him, I can. I will. But...
[Garrus shakes his head.]
If you can explain it to him, work it out, he's on the short list of people I'd consider strong ally material. I've seen him shoot. It's impressive, and he does it with a bow and arrow. But if he refuses to understand, well. Any name on the list can be taken off the list.
[She listens, letting Garrus explain, because his perspective sheds some much-needed light on the situation. While the wariness doesn't quite leave her demeanour, she nods.]
I'll keep it civil, don't worry. I just wanted your take on the situation, since you apparently had some idea of who he was. I'm not sure I'm ready to make friends, but allies might work. If... if you have plans, I'll accommodate them.
[Plans. The word has an echo both exhilarating and ominous. She doesn't think she wants to go further down that path at the moment.]
By the way, do guests get asked in from the doorstep in this house? Even if it isn't as nice as the one a dozen busy Primes are building for me on Rannoch.
He's one of the highest-ranked people in a culture where rank is everything, and entirely dependent on your blood color. So he's... I wouldn't call him the easiest to befriend, but there's plenty to respect there when it comes to skill.
[He doesn't have anything set yet, still trying to consider ins and outs, but the other question knocks him out of those thoughts and he blinks, half-turning and looking at the living room as if it had just snuck up on him.]
...That was stupid, sorry. I'm not exactly used to hosting. Come in. Drink? Snack? Don't touch the coffeemaker or the one painting on the wall, but you're safe to sit anywhere. Uh, probably don't want to jump on the couch, though, there's some stuff under it.
Someone's been busy doing cultural exchange. [She pokes him gently.] If you start making noises to the effect of "by the goddess!" then I'll know you've spent too much time with Liara.
[Genuine, merry laughter bubbles out of her, until a wedge of incredulity jams itself into her mirth.]
Garrus. Are you telling me you booby-trapped the coffeemaker? And if I may be so bold as to say, the couch is an incredibly obvious gun cache.
If she ever gets here, she's going to kill us both. [There's a very short pause.] Worth it.
And yes. The coffeemaker has a timer. It was the work of moments. Plus it's not the gun under the couch. That's in the umbrella stand. Keep up.
[He's close to laughter himself, both with the joking around and the pure relief that things are fine with Tali again.]
I can offer the leaf water stuff, Thane's obsessed with it. We've got regular water too, and some apple juice because I was curious. Half the fridge is because I was curious.
Of course, [she rejoins smoothly.] If there's ever an ambush while I'm over for a cup of tea, it's important to know where the weaponry is. Speaking of which, tea is fine. I brought my own straws. [She pats a suit pocket absently.]
It's an experience, isn't it? Trying to learn a whole new order of things to eat. I managed to set up a filtering system in the kitchen, though how to make it double as a proximity mine, that is the question...
While it might be highly effective to explode a complicated array of glassware at an intruder, I spent a good while putting that thing together, and you may remember I'm an engineer, not a chemist.
[She leans back against the kitchen counter, crossing her arms lightly.]
You could show me how to rig the coffeemaker, though. I've come to the conclusion that as far as human drinks go, that isn't my thing.
[There's a flicker of his mandibles as he pulls down mugs.]
Been too busy wiring the machines.
[Once he pulls out the different types of tea they have so she can see them, he carefully disarms the coffeemaker and opens it up.]
Take your pick, and then we can go over this. It's easier than rigging most other things. Already has a timer. The tricky part is setting it up to super-heat the water and getting the disarming code in there so you don't wind up taking this to the face.
Of course. A lesser turian would have cooked his mandibles in trying to set that up.
[She leans over for a proper look at the selection. Something much like tea is drunk among her people, though obviously the plant and the flavouring ingredients are different.]
How about you get me a mug of tea first, and we'll sit down and talk about something else for a while?
[Something that won't loop back into the danger their very being here puts them in, or the fragility of their existence in this city. Tali likes to think she has her head on straight when it comes to the facts, and if there is a threat, now, at hand, they'll leap up to meet it. But as long as it is quiet, she'd as soon focus on that.]
A guy offers to show off for you and you're asking for tea. Yeah, you've got this under control.
[But there's calm teasing to his words. He's not bothered, and Garrus sticks the bags in the mugs, pouring in the hot water and bringing it over to the table.]
Pull up a chair.
[Then he's going back to the cabinet quickly and grabbing sugar.]
Uh. I stick this in mine. I guess there are other things you can put in it too? I can see if we have something if you need it.
Well, Mr. Vakarian, it's not as if you can see me flutter my lashes, anyway. And not like I'd risk swooning in this kitchen and triggering a collapsing shelf or something. [There's an answering hint of teasing to her words, even as she looks slantwise up at him from the array of teas. A slow beat passes before she shifts to find a seat at the table.]
Um, right. No, I'm fine, I'll take mine as it comes. We... have something a lot like this on the Flotilla, so you could say it's homey.
[His mandibles flicker in amusement as he looks the kitchen over.]
You might have a point. This is one of the most secure kitchens in the city, likely, but not the safest.
[He brings over the sugar and takes a seat of his own, pulling a glove off to poke his tea bag so it bobs in the water. That's the best part of tea, really.]
The flavor's there, but just a little too faint for me. Or maybe I just like adding things to earth food and drinks. They have a lot of additions. So, yeah. What did you want to talk about?
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At first he doesn't get the point, and he reaches up to rub the scar on the side of his face while he thinks. Of course they're a unit. They should really have their own record-keeper at this point. Maybe EDI counts. But then, maybe, he thinks he sees it. Ourselves. She's telling him she can take care of herself.
Garrus sighs.]
I know.
[His voice is quiet.]
I know. I've seen you fight. I've seen you take a stand against your admiralty board. ...But I've seen Krios fight, and I've seen him fall. I've seen a lot fall that I know can handle themselves. Menae...
[Omega. Thessia.]
I don't know how to stop trying to protect people at this point. I don't know if I even want to. The last thing I want to do is drive you away, or fight with you. But I can't figure out how to relax. This place doesn't have weaknesses that I've found, but we do and it knows some of them. It knows us well enough to chip us and... Ah. Hah. Yeah. Right. Shutting up.
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It's not about taking care of myself. I mean that I need to protect myself to protect you. As do you, for the rest of us. Because we're going to be caught up in the same trouble.
[None of us can afford to die for one another.] I was angry, but you won't be rid of me that easily. I... hope the same works the other way.
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Though now he hears the undercurrent too, or he thinks he does. If he goes Archangel, if he starts acting out and going rogue... he puts them at risk. They'll all be watched more, no matter how well they're integrating or seeming to cooperate. He half-turns, looking past her for a moment before shaking his head.]
You're not going to lose me. Nothing you're capable of doing could drive me away. [There's a short pause.] But I can't not act. They've got kids. Hostages, same expectations as everyone else - integrate or face the consequences. If I don't find something to do... Some way, some difference to make, I don't know if I can live with myself.
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And as aggravating as it is, part of that groundwork is me trying to stay out of trouble--and re-ed--so we can work out something to do that actually has impact.
I want us to go home. If we can do that with a few of the others here, topple a few things while we're at it, you know I'm with you. Only it's a long game to play.
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[He shrugs.]
What else do I add?
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[She takes half a step back--any more and she'll collide with the door--and drops her jaw against a hand, fingers curling and then opening again.]
Maybe you need to hover less, but I... I need to stop trying to prove myself so much. Nobody ever came out and said it, and I know I'm trusted just the same, but I... know I was always sort of the little one on the squad. The engineer girl on her Pilgrimage, the rookie researcher who scraped by on Haestrom by the skin of her teeth. [Not who got her team killed, not to Garrus, not here.
She sighs, the lifts her eyes to him, her voice genuinely softer now.]
Apology accepted. You don't have to say anything.
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[His voice is gentle, with the barest hint of teasing, and it's Garrus' turn to reach out. He rests a hand on her shoulder, looking into her eyes.]
You're one of the smallest on the squad, sure. We'd have to stand you back-to-back with Kasumi to know for certain which was the shortest. But you've never been weak. Hell, you and I make half the group that's been there the whole time.
You don't have anything to prove, vas Rannoch. Not to us, not to your people. [And then, because serious is something he can do, but he prefers to break it up a little...] Well. You could always try to prove your shotgun is better than my sniper rifle. But you'll lose that one, so I suggest not even going there.
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Don't go there indeed, Vakarian. I can always start counting how many shots I've set you up for by sending Chatika to flush some hapless merc from cover.
[She pauses.] You know, when you opened the door I didn't know if I was going to hug or kick you. [And she'd continue I think I picked the right option, but it's audible enough in her tone.]
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[There's more amusement in his voice now that what he's said has gone over well.]
I'm glad you didn't kick me, personally. I wouldn't want you breaking your toes and having to limp around. People might start asking questions and I get enough frightened looks as it is.
[He's sounding smug. Yeah, they'd fought. But they've fixed things. And he hasn't gotten kicked. It's a pretty good day, in his books.]
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[Then she sobers.] There was something I wanted to mention, though. You... know someone named Darkleer, right? One of the trolls, the ones who all write in different colours.
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[His voice is mild. Garrus isn't upset, just telling her. It wasn't like Tali was going to use the knowledge to go around hitting one of the few rather weak spots on a turian body. He reaches over and taps her faceplate, mandibles widening as his mood fully returns to normal.]
You're on my turf, quarian. You might want to be careful. And yeah. I know Darkleer. Met him a couple of times now. Scientist, helped me find a coupe of dextro things here before I discovered I... didn't need that anymore.
[And then the cheer fades, and Garrus crosses his arms.]
...Did he do something?
[He likes Darkleer. But Tali is crew.]
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And thus, she can return to the other topic.]
He spoke of you like he knew you, but I wanted to be sure. It wouldn't be that hard to work out we know each other.
Scientific curiosity is all well and good. I certainly don't mind talking about my world, or... even things like my immune system. I mean, everyone knows that back home, too. But then he asked for the schematics of my suit.
Asked for them, Garrus. Like it was nothing.
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Anyone from home would know how stupid that was. Pointless, rude, and almost threatening. But I don't see how he'd know that. They've also got something of a handicap, his race. Trolls. They're the top of the foodchain, from what another one was saying. Defeated everyone else in their galaxy. Prothean-like. So being considerate of other races' vulnerabilities isn't going to naturally occur to them. Not that he's fully excused. If you need me to talk to him, I can. I will. But...
[Garrus shakes his head.]
If you can explain it to him, work it out, he's on the short list of people I'd consider strong ally material. I've seen him shoot. It's impressive, and he does it with a bow and arrow. But if he refuses to understand, well. Any name on the list can be taken off the list.
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I'll keep it civil, don't worry. I just wanted your take on the situation, since you apparently had some idea of who he was. I'm not sure I'm ready to make friends, but allies might work. If... if you have plans, I'll accommodate them.
[Plans. The word has an echo both exhilarating and ominous. She doesn't think she wants to go further down that path at the moment.]
By the way, do guests get asked in from the doorstep in this house? Even if it isn't as nice as the one a dozen busy Primes are building for me on Rannoch.
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[He doesn't have anything set yet, still trying to consider ins and outs, but the other question knocks him out of those thoughts and he blinks, half-turning and looking at the living room as if it had just snuck up on him.]
...That was stupid, sorry. I'm not exactly used to hosting. Come in. Drink? Snack? Don't touch the coffeemaker or the one painting on the wall, but you're safe to sit anywhere. Uh, probably don't want to jump on the couch, though, there's some stuff under it.
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[Genuine, merry laughter bubbles out of her, until a wedge of incredulity jams itself into her mirth.]
Garrus. Are you telling me you booby-trapped the coffeemaker? And if I may be so bold as to say, the couch is an incredibly obvious gun cache.
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And yes. The coffeemaker has a timer. It was the work of moments. Plus it's not the gun under the couch. That's in the umbrella stand. Keep up.
[He's close to laughter himself, both with the joking around and the pure relief that things are fine with Tali again.]
I can offer the leaf water stuff, Thane's obsessed with it. We've got regular water too, and some apple juice because I was curious. Half the fridge is because I was curious.
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It's an experience, isn't it? Trying to learn a whole new order of things to eat. I managed to set up a filtering system in the kitchen, though how to make it double as a proximity mine, that is the question...
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How's it wired? It shouldn't be hard. We can keep both... Wait. You don't actually want it to work as a mine too, do you.
[Garrus looks over at her as it sinks in he's being teased.]
I'll take any defenses I can get. Wait and see, the coffeemaker will come in handy. I'd place bets on it.
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[She leans back against the kitchen counter, crossing her arms lightly.]
You could show me how to rig the coffeemaker, though. I've come to the conclusion that as far as human drinks go, that isn't my thing.
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[There's a flicker of his mandibles as he pulls down mugs.]
Been too busy wiring the machines.
[Once he pulls out the different types of tea they have so she can see them, he carefully disarms the coffeemaker and opens it up.]
Take your pick, and then we can go over this. It's easier than rigging most other things. Already has a timer. The tricky part is setting it up to super-heat the water and getting the disarming code in there so you don't wind up taking this to the face.
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[She leans over for a proper look at the selection. Something much like tea is drunk among her people, though obviously the plant and the flavouring ingredients are different.]
How about you get me a mug of tea first, and we'll sit down and talk about something else for a while?
[Something that won't loop back into the danger their very being here puts them in, or the fragility of their existence in this city. Tali likes to think she has her head on straight when it comes to the facts, and if there is a threat, now, at hand, they'll leap up to meet it. But as long as it is quiet, she'd as soon focus on that.]
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[But there's calm teasing to his words. He's not bothered, and Garrus sticks the bags in the mugs, pouring in the hot water and bringing it over to the table.]
Pull up a chair.
[Then he's going back to the cabinet quickly and grabbing sugar.]
Uh. I stick this in mine. I guess there are other things you can put in it too? I can see if we have something if you need it.
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Um, right. No, I'm fine, I'll take mine as it comes. We... have something a lot like this on the Flotilla, so you could say it's homey.
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You might have a point. This is one of the most secure kitchens in the city, likely, but not the safest.
[He brings over the sugar and takes a seat of his own, pulling a glove off to poke his tea bag so it bobs in the water. That's the best part of tea, really.]
The flavor's there, but just a little too faint for me. Or maybe I just like adding things to earth food and drinks. They have a lot of additions. So, yeah. What did you want to talk about?
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