Garrus Vakarian (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
forgivetheinsubordination) wrote2037-04-27 09:49 pm
forgivetheinsubordination) wrote2037-04-27 09:49 pm
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vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
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FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
I'm not. I'm on a blanket messing with attempts at crossbow bolts, a little south of camp.
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okay. do you mind if we all meet up? the rest of the cell i mean. it may not be now, but i want us to get to know each other
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Not at all. It's a good idea to all get together. And I do know everyone in the cell already, if you need details on any of the other three.
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oh, really?
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
if you don't mind, can you tell me your opinion on them?
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
you know besides what's in the file
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Don't mind at all. Hinata's the one I know the least, but he's on the younger side. During the fiasco on the Neheda, Orange team members were looking for him to be protected.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Xion's strength and weakness is in how much she cares. Trust her with a task, and she'll give her all.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Korra's a powerhouse when she's focused. She can move rocks and water, do things with fire, and has a good head on her shoulders.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
We get a mission to protect or save someone, you'll have a solid group. We get a genocide mission, you and I are gonna be carrying all three. Possibly literally.
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FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
i see. it's good to know that. a group's only as strong as its weaknesses right?
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
if it does come down to that though....
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
i trust you.
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Gonna be clear that compassion isn't a weakness. But it's something to be aware of in the context of the missions we take on. Ajna's end wasn't pretty. I figure you remember that.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
I'll trust you too.
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normally i'd agree with you. but here it might be
[If they hesitate, people might die. Their people. However, Reiner isn't about to try and stamp that compassion out of his unit. If they don't have to be like him or Garrus, that's best.]
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
hopefully it won't come down to that. we can be the ones defending others, watching their backs
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
yeah i remember. the shai.
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How can someone really fulfill Green goals, really protect, without compassion?
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
It has to have focus and limits, but it has to be there. There's compassion even in your reply, that we can defend others and watch their backs.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
In itself it isn't a weakness.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
But for the people without limits, what I figure is coming up for Green - killing the neraki as we did the shai - will be hard.
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FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
yeah.
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
but i have experience. i can try to help them through it, when we have orders to take them out.
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FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
You wanna talk about that? Because I gotta say I'm curious, with the pieces I've heard and then seeing you change. Your file doesn't mention anything like that.
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FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
if I do i'm worried you won't trust me anymore
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I think I've got a measure of you. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm not. But it could help on the field to know, by the sound of it.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Your call, Reiner.
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i tried to wipe out humanity. i got thousands of people killed.
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Why?
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to go home
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
it's more complicated, but that's the gist
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I'd like the complicated bits. We could meet up in person, so you don't have to distill them down to tiny fragments.
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i can't tell you a lot
FROM: braun.reiner@cdc.org
but ok
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I'm just south of the camp. Your cuff'll be able to find me. Come by, let's talk.
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Maybe this was a bad idea. No, he knows it is.]
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Garrus nods in return, gesturing at the blanket that's got a lot of sticks on it.]
Join me, Reiner. Not gonna bite. I'm here to listen.
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The silence is awkward and ugly, threatening to choke him with how thick it is. When he starts to speak, it's a sudden rush of words, and he almost chokes on them.] I was thirteen. Bertolt was twelve, so was Annie. We had our mission. Infiltrate the walls and wipe them out from the inside.
[His knuckles are white and his fists tremble.]
Bertolt kicked open a hole from the outside. I destroyed the second gate. There was nothing stopping the titans from getting in and...
[He jerks a little, as though to dodge the memory.] There was no way they could evacuate all of the people past the second wall
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Garrus is quiet for a moment. He likes humanity. Its got its flaws like any species does, but the galaxy would be an emptier place without humans running around. Then again, any species sending in twelve and thirteen-year-olds is probably desperate.]
Your peoples are at war, from what I've gathered. Humanity and... titans?
[Reiner's file doesn't say a species. Garrus had double-checked that while waiting for the guy. The safest guess is titans, from the bits he's heard from people from their world, but Reiner's just said 'the titans' as if he doesn't completely associate with them. Maybe Garrus is reading too much into the tense words.]
And breathe, Reiner. Please.
[He's being told for a reason. It's not just because Garrus asked, because Reiner could have said no. There's probably something the young man is seeking, too.]
My people fought with humanity once too. About forty years ago. Fighting happens, sometimes, when you get a couple of different species together.
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[That's all he'll say on the matter, even if pressed. His head hurts, and he sucks in a slow, shaky sort of breath when Garrus tells him to. He doesn't want to think about this. He doesn't want to live knowing what he's done, but he can't give up now, not after he's come so far. His nails bite into his skin in a futile attempt to distract himself.
Garrus' words help. Reiner doesn't say anything at first, forcing his mind to wrap around that knowledge. Fighting...]
This isn't a fight. It's an extermination. Or it was.
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The young man's knuckles are going white as he digs his nails in, and the breath definitely isn't steady. Reiner isn't all right with what had happened. Garrus doesn't know that he can chalk it up to regret, though, no matter how much he'd like to. The last two words make his heart seize up, though.]
Was.
[If the wiping out is over, then Jean's dead. Mikasa's dead. Eren, Erwin, Levi, all of the ones he's met here are gone, but Jean is the one that really hurts. Garrus doesn't want to ask for clarification, doesn't want to know for sure that one of his young is lost due to the actions of another.
Garrus' subharmonics aren't completely steady as he speaks again. They're a little shaky, a little weighed down. Roxas is dead, Xion is probably dead, Jean... Every name on that list makes him realize that he can only keep them safe here.]
Can you tell me how it started?
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